Hello friends, happy true soup and despair season. I was thinking the other day about how feelings and thought processes change as you age, and about how once when I was in my early 20s and the world felt absolutely impossible and like I would never survive it, an older friend told me a story about advice that she'd given someone else - a famously morose singer-songwriter - my age. "The older you get, the less you feel things," she'd told him. He had looked at her and said, "I don't want to feel